Inside I felt like time has been standing still, but
according to the calendar, it's been seven days since my husband told the kids
and myself that he was divorcing me and moving out.
It serves to remind me as my mother used to always say to
me, "Time waits for no man." Before I know it, two weeks will have
passed, then three then 20...
I really did miss him today...I found myself wondering if he
was missing me at all. I don't wish him any hurt, but i guess I say to myself
if he ever loved me at all, shouldn't he miss me? But I'll never ask him that.
I'm not looking for closure, I'm just biding my time until God allows my hurt
to fade away.
I want to remember the good and be able to forget the rest,
after all this man is the father of my children, and because of that, he will
always be a part of my life in some way.
Yesterday, I was at lunch and I saw an older woman sitting
alone waiting for her food to arrive, and for some reason she struck me as
lonely. It wasn't because she was sitting alone, it was the look on her face. I
looked at her wedding ring finger and I didn't see a ring. I looked at my
wedding ring finger, at the deep groove and the lighter skin that's a dead
giveaway that rings once occupied that space. I thought to myself, I don't want
to be like her, I don't want to grow old and be alone....
The sun rises and the sun sets, and this too shall pass
Posted by La'Tanya Williams-Brisbon at 10:28 PM
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